Lately it seems like I do more thinking about writing than actually writing. Isn't that weird? Especially in light of my New Year's goal to commit to writing consistently every week to hone my craft (eh.. craft / throwing words at a wall and seeing what sticks... you know what I mean). But either way, I seem to be letting this goal get lost in the clouds.
And isn't that how it is sometimes? I know i'm not alone. We have these plans and these big ideas and sometimes their loftiness, their grandness, feel almost too much to commit to action. Like somehow doing the thing will make the thing less special, or somehow come to be far less exciting/wonderful/unique/successful than we had imagined in our heads and heart.
The thing is, though, that to do the thing......... you have to DO the damn THING.
Talking about it isn't doing. Daydreaming about it isn't doing. Making excuses isn't doing.
Commit, pen to paper... or whatever it is you want to do. I don't know that part... I'm not a fortune teller. Just a writer who seems to do more story-thinking than storytelling lately.
I think I have to remind myself that this blog is not the New York Times (you already knew that though, yes?). In other words, it doesn't have to be perfectly riveting content and compelling plot lines every time I sit down to type my heart out over here, just because it also happens to be a website I've attached my name and resume to... right? This is not the New York Times (or the Los Angeles Times, or some fancy magazine, etc.) - it's just a space for me to write to you, my invisible, hopefully not creepy, internet friends.
[Okay, let's be real - basically just my mom and my boyfriend and a couple of other people who already know the in-real-life offline version of me.]
That can be freeing if we let it.
In my yoga class this morning, the teacher spoke about how an old teacher of hers once said yoga was freedom, and that resonated with me. I think any outlet where we allow ourselves to just be - to express ourselves and move and be creative without placing a label or assigning a quantitative goal to it - can be just that: freedom... and maybe even pretty fun.
Anyways... that's where my head's at today! So I figured it was high time to say hello and claim this space of mine. xo