Whew. Here we are! Back again at Monday, ready to recharge and start this week with a new focus. And also, I'm pooped.
Last week felt like a whirlwind. I had been sick with the flu (supposedly that's what I had, anyways) since the previous week, and packed my cough drops on a road trip to a Palm Springs/Indio/Joshua Tree with two friends who were in town visiting. We returned back home in time for the second weekend of my yoga extensions training on Saturday. (I believe I mentioned this in my last post, but I'm in a part 2-ish training, that builds off of the power yoga teacher training I completed this past summer.) And now I'd love a nap. Maybe a couple.
Yesterday I co-taught a free level one power yoga class as part of my current yoga teacher training. It was fun to jump back into it, and despite the crazy rain storm we were having over here, the class was packed to the brim. When I began this yoga teacher journey, I had no intentions of actually being a yoga teacher. I know, what? But I was mainly going through the training for my own self-growth and development. I had no grand plans for the way forward, and as an (albeit friendly, people-loving) introvert, I often find myself uncomfortable being in the spotlight or having to demonstrate things in training.
But the actual teaching part... gosh. I love it. I feel like something takes control of my brain and I just start moving and speaking outside of my body. It's wacky. I mean, I don't know that I'm particularly great at it and I have no idea what I'm going to do after this training is over, but I'm hoping I'll just eventually figure out what my place is in this space. I go back and forth about whether or not I want to seriously pursue a studio job, partly because I fight feeling out of my element in this role - despite loving the actual teaching part. I'm not sure that actually makes sense outside of my brain, but that's how I feel. Impostor syndrome, you know?
On that note, I'm feeling out of sorts today, and wildly uninspired with my goals. Maybe it's just a case of the Mondays, or the result of some changes that will be happening in the next few months in my little family, but I feel a little.........unsure. That's the best word I can think of to use here. Like my previous passions are not calling out to me as loudly, and I'm not sure what direction to step forward. I read this and it also got the wheels turning. And really, does anyone know what they're doing?
More on all that soon. Happy Monday, friends! xo