I worked from home again today, although I have to say, I'm feeling a lot better! My head just feels super stuffed up and out of it. Hopefully I can get back in the office tomorrow. Although truthfully, it's not so bad to be home. Ironic that I gave up working from home full-time before, eh? #thegrassisgreener
Anyways, today I was randomly thinking about how much intuitive eating has positively affected my life. I feel like lately (and by lately, I mean the last six months to a year) I've really taken it even more to heart, and it's been such a sincere blessing. This actually occurred to me while I was eating waffles for breakfast this morning, which I had smeared with peanut butter and strawberry jam. I feel like I haven't had jam in ages - probably not since I was last on vacation somewhere, and God knows when that was. Oh wait - I do know... New Orleans in May for my friend's wedding. ANYWAYS. So jam - as silly as it may sound, it feels like a luxury, vacation type item because I never have jam in the house.
Realizing that made me remember why I got into the habit of not keeping jam in my kitchen, which made me think about how I stopped eating peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, and eating peanut butter sandwiches only.
...Still with me? Talk about a random, rabbit hole of thinking, right?
I don't remember exactly, but I think it was around grad school. Jam has a fair amount of sugar and at the time, I was always reading about how sugar was the devil, and therefore it seemed unnecessary. Plus, it was cheaper to just eat pb and banana sandwiches - hello, budget.
So without diving further into the weeds about my apparent love of a toast spread (huh? like what am I talking about, right?), putting that darn jam on my waffles today - and really, just buying it at the grocery store on an impulse a few days ago - reminded me how far I've come in my health journey, and how much intuitive eating has helped me return to a state of.... well, normalcy! Eating like a regular person without the diet culture whispering in my ear about how sugar is the devil and I should ignore the urge to add this seemingly benign food into my life. I've gotten to a place where I can honor my cravings, listen to my body, and identity thoughts that are negative or stemming from the diet mindset permeating our society.
Because listen - no food is the devil. Sure some have more nutrients than others (a banana versus a doughnut, for example), but that doesn't make any one food item a hero or something that's going to save you or change your life. I mean, if you're allergic to something, that's a different story, but for the most part, no food should be off limits or seen as a "problem." That's my opinion, granted, and based off of my experience with intuitive eating (and the intuitive eating principles). That jam on my waffles is not going to give me diabetes or send my health down the drain, or set me onto a path of destruction. It won't.
And truly, I don't believe that's going to happen to you or anyone else, with jam or cheese or cake or whatever you've banished from your life for fear of overeating or gaining weight. It just relies on self-trust and sincerely listening to your body.
That being said, I should also point out I didn't workout at all the past two days out of respect for my cold or whatever the heck I have, and that's something that would have been tough for me a decade ago. I feel like that's very much a part of the intuitive eating influence, which helped remind me that movement should be mindful and not tied to calories burn.
It all goes hand in hand.
I mean gosh.. this morning's waffles were delish and hit the spot, and sometimes eating something that feels like a vacation is a good bit of self-care on days you're not feeling well.
...I feel like this post's alternate title could be "JAM." ;)
So glad it's almost the weekend! Fingers crossed I'm feeling better by Saturday so I can hit the beach and maybe sneak in a brunch.